Gotta pick up that guitar,
Hum a few notes and sing a sad song,
Breaking windows in my eyes,
Is letting go a crime?
Unforsaken lies from unforgotten eyes,
Anger flies, guilt remains,
Its too quick to let him off the hook this way,
Yet my soul yearns for peace,
The war has been too cold,
She begs my stubbornness to let it all go,
Every sentence ends in "but",
and my mind whispers softly,
Making me look back,
And from afar it hasn't all been bad,
From afar its bearable,
From afar its not that hate-able,
Its not that wearable,
Looking back I see maybe its all for the greater good,
Cause both of them were dicks,
Its a lesson not to run back to sticks,
when your standards are a meadow of blooming flowers and sunny skies.
My body is yearning to feel,
hungry in the absence of my relationship addiction,
Back stabbing now feels like a normal part of society,
cause everywhere i seem to turn,
I keep meeting it head on in sobriety,
Maybe I need to be returned to the manufacturer's dungeon,
I'm faulty,
Don't they still need to work on me?
Some disciplinary lessons,
A kick in the ass,
A filter 'round my mouth,
and patience to put on a smile.
He seems unfazed,
Does he know the damage he's done?
Does he understand the hurt he's left?
The harm he caused?
All I did was call him names,
Did I really deserve to be treated this way?
I was so afraid,
What's his next move?
He turned into a monster,
all my friends thoughts so too.
How could they forgive and forget so quickly,
I haven't ,
Forgiven I may but forget I refuse,
My heart should shut up,
Didn't she get enough abuse?
The wounds are not yet fully healed,
Keep jamming knives into unexpected cracks,
I've hit rock bottom,
They've hit rock bottom,
So maybe its time to stand up,
with my head and heels high,
Jamming fingers into old wounds
Tearing bullets out of a black gash,
Leaving no mark in my past to taint the present life,
Leaving no trace of guilt,
No trace of shame,
Turning regret into gratitude,
cause there's a reason things happened this way.
There's a reason things happened this way.
There's a reason things happened this way.